Confession: New Year Blues

I’d be lying to you if I told you I had it all together. The year has only just begun and I’ve cried more times than I can count; most of those times being in front of others. Truthfully, I’m not always able to control my emotions. Some say it’s a problem. It may very well be. For now, I’ll call it being human.

This year, I’m throwing all my fake smiles and lies out the window. For most of my life, I remember being very quiet, and I had the tendency to bottle my emotions until I exploded. Truthfully, I’ve been meaning to put an end to this for the longest time, being completely honest with the world, as well as myself. What I mean by this is not necessarily sharing every secret with the world, but rather, putting an end to my pride.

For the past few years, I’ve kept myself hidden from the world because I was so afraid of what people would think of me. This has most definitely affected my life and relationships in a big way. I’ve never felt too comfortable being myself, and as a result, became withdrawn. This year, I decided to start a YouTube channel because I want to stop feeling like I was shut off from the rest of world. I want to make a difference, and I know that the only way I can do that is by being completely honest.

My goal is simple. I don’t expect to become anyone’s hero, but I hope that maybe, just maybe, my words will have an impact on someone, whether it be through my books or through the very words that leave my mouth. But for now, I’ll wait that day comes.

Hope you all are off to a good start!

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